My Bestsisfriend

What would you feel if a friend of yours for 12 long years tells you one day that she has to leave the country to follow her dreams? 12 long years of being together almost all the time. You graduated from the same university, worked in the same company and even have the same set of friends. You are so used to seeing her nearly everyday. You eat lunch together, sometimes go out to have dinner and once a month you never fail to celebrate your friendship by having a Best sis friend day. You’ll go shopping until you drop, exercise your palates by eating on restos that you haven’t gone to before, talk incessantly, do some pretty silly things, laugh a whole lot and just have a really fun all girls day out then talk about it some more on the phone when both of you are home already. And then one day this friend of yours has to say goodbye.

I never had a sister. I’m the only girl in a brood of six. I grew up having many male friends than female ones. I’m more comfortable with guys because I grow up in an environment where I did not have a single girl playmate. Female classmates yes of course but I only had men for friends. When I left the province and transferred here in Manila, I entered an all-girls catholic school. It was very traumatic for me because all girls were really mean to me. I don’t know why but they just don’t like me. Maybe because I was a little aloof when it comes to dealing with them. Just like what I’ve previously mentioned, I’m more of “one of the guys” type of girl. Then come high school, I’ve met different kinds of people. Some were really nice and some were having a really good time back stabbing me. It was awfully hard for me to find real girl friends back then. When I entered college, I was so prepared to build a wall around me so no one can really break into my shell. So no one can ever hurt me again. That’s when I met Peachy. Peachy was very popular both with men and women. When she walks into a room, she lights it up with her radiant smile and warm nature. She comes from an affluent family but never did she brag about it. She befriends everyone regardless of your social stature or your popularity. She’s very down to earth, smart and pretty too. She’s every girl’s dream girl friend and so much more. She’s very compassionate and cherishes her friends like treasures. But at first, I was too paranoid to even dare try to become her friend. I thought, she’s Ms. Personality and I am Ms. Nobody. Who would ever want to become friends with a nonentity like me?

But Peachy was different from all the other so called friends that I’ve met in my entire lifetime. She’s just too sincere with her friendship to be taken for granted. She’s just too fun to be with to be ignored. She’s just too loving to not love her back. She became the sister that I’ve never had. I finally understood why God did not give me a sister because He plans to give me the most precious and wonderful person for a best friend and that is Peachy. We call each other Bes, short for best friend. I made a promise to her that what ever happens and however long God wants us to be apart I’ll be the greatest fan of her life. I’ll be cheering, shouting, whistling and clapping for every dream that she’s able to reach. She’s got a lot of dreams and though my heart is breaking that she has to leave, I pray with all my might that God will grant her all the desires of her heart. Here’s an excerpt of my birthday and goodbye letter to her:

“I don’t want to say goodbye because I know that we’ll see each other again. Maybe sooner than we both think or maybe not. But one thing is for sure, we’ll be bestsisfriends always no matter how long we have to be apart. I just don’t know how I’d be able to get used to not having you around but I know somehow I’ll get by. This is really hard Bes, there are moments such as this that my mind still refuses to accept the truth that you are really leaving. I don’t want this to be any harder for you but I just can’t help it. I don’t even know how to finish this letter because in the first place I was always putting this off until this very moment. Because I know that when I begin to do so, reality will hit me, and truth will begin to eat at me that you are really leaving. And I’ll just end up crying my eyes out like what I’m doing right now. I know that no matter how we promise that nothing will change, a lot will. You’ll be so far away now and I don’t know how to deal with that. I’m so lost. That’s why I keep on pretending that you are not going until I saw your suitcases. Don’t get me wrong Bes, of course I would like you to reach your dreams and I’m so proud of you that you are taking a big step now to make your dreams into a reality. So don’t mind me because even if you see me crying outside, in my heart I’m truly happy for you. I guess what I’m really trying to say is that I’ll be missing you badly. That I might be tempted to text and call you everyday. I hope that I won’t be much of a nuisance to you when I begin to do that. I know that you’ll be very busy but I might miss you so much that’s why I’m warning you this early. Thank you Bes for everything. I need not enumerate it all because you know what those are already. You gave me a friendship that’s like no other. No one can ever replace you in my heart. Happy, Happy Birthday Bes. And though we won’t get to celebrate your next birthdays together anymore, I’ll be celebrating you everyday in my heart. I love you my bestsisfriend!”

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