Dream Car Coming True

We all have our dream cars, it maybe just a simple one for regular or family use or it maybe the most luxurious and expensive ones. But sometimes no matter how hard we work to earn enough money to have it, we simply just cannot afford it. Leaving us no other option but to resort to auto loans. But not all companies offering auto loans are very accommodating especially to those who had a bad credit history in the past. There are things in life that we don’t have any control of like bankruptcy or accidents that left us penniless so it should not be put against us if we wanted to apply for an auto loan. That was the dilemma of my friend; he wanted to buy the car of his dreams so badly but he did not have a clean slate financially in the past. He was almost hopeless when he chanced upon TheAutoFinder.com in the internet. The Auto Loan Finder has been in the automotive and financing industries for more than a century already! And they are just getting better and better year after year! They’ve already processed millions of good and bad credit auto loans alike. You can be sure that you’re not just in good hands but in the best hands with them. Moreover, aside from auto loans and affordable insurance, they also help customers find the vehicle they want because The Auto Finder has access to more than 1,000,000 vehicles at any given time. And they even offer suggestions to consumers regarding auto leasing and purchasing. So what are you moping around there for? Apply now, and make your dream car come true!

Some Web Lovin’

Have you ever wondered where can you find “The One” for you? Sure you’ve tried staying in bookstores for several hours pretending to read, strolling in malls alone to parade your singledom, sitting in coffee shops bespectacled and all with your laptop open in front of you and acting as if you are trying to work on something really significant (so that you’ll look like a real smart aleck) and I bet that you’ve even resorted to borrowing someone else’s dog to bring to the park in the hopes that you’ll meet your own John Cusack or Dianne Lane. But unfortunately, you still ended up with no one and you begin to wonder if there’s anything wrong with you. Of course there is nothing the matter with you it’s just that you might be looking for love in the wrong places. Well, you’re in luck because have I got news for you! I happen to come across a site where in they give out great guidelines for on-line dating. Yes, you’ve read that right. Looking for your OTL Read: One True Love through the internet! Onlinedatingtips.org tells you the what’s and what’s not on dating online. They aid you look for your first “hellos” to “I like yous” and even your “can I spend my lifetime with yous.” They provide insightful suggestions on how to make on-line dating work for you. They help in finding the right mate taking your cultural backgrounds, religions, interests and even geographical locations into consideration. Whatever questions you have regarding Online dating, they sure to have all the answers to it! So why don’t you start visiting their site and equip yourself with all the information that you need about internet matchmaking and bring out that love guru in you. Start looking for that significant other by trying one of their recommended sites and who knows Cupid just might drop by when you join in today. So, what do you say? How about some web lovin, huh?

Let’s Get Ready to…Gamble!

Are you always curious to know what’s it like to play in a casino? Have you ever wondered how it feels to be a part of this one huge gaming facility? Can you picture the thrill and excitement, the anxiety and apprehension of the players as they open cards after cards after cards or the seemingly never ending rolling of the dice on the roulette or the pounding of their hearts as they pull on the lever of a slot machine? Well, imagine no more. Golden Palace.com gives you the opportunity to experience this all and so much more. It’s one of the top on-line casinos for many years now. All you have to do is download the software on your computer and let the games begin. If you want to play but you are still not that confident to play for money, the guest mode (free) prepares you for the real deal. As the old adage goes “practice makes perfect”, right? And if you think that you are ready to try your luck, you may now choose playing with real money. It even has a live dealer to give you a feel of being in a real casino. And here’s a treat for all new players, you can receive up to $300 in free casino bonus money! Now, isn’t that incredible? You have security issues? No need to worry because Golden Palace Casino uses a highly advanced Random Number Generator (RNG) to create a randomized outcome for each game making cheating impossible. You don’t even have to go to Las Vegas anymore to experience real casino, let Las Vegas come to your homes instead with Golden Palace Casino!

My “Unromantic” Husband

Some women have this picture of a romantic guy in their heads. For them being romantic means having to receive the most beautiful of bouquets, the most branded and expensive chocolates, the most sparkling and biggest cuts of diamonds and the most touching and tear-jerking letters from their men. But not for me.

My husband is not the flowers, chocolates, jewelries and letters type of guy. I haven’t even experienced dinner with candlelight with him or have been brought to some place really special. In fact, he was so nervous when he proposed to me that he forgotten everything that he wanted to say and just gave me the velvet box with the ring in it without so much as saying a word aside from “O” translated in English, “here.” He maybe very predictable and doesn’t know the meaning of the word “surprise” but who said anything about him not being romantic? Every night my husband lets me sleep on my side of the bed snuggling me with my back at him even if he’s not really at ease with it. Let’s face it, each and every one of us has “the certain side of the bed” thingy and if we don’t get to sleep on our side, we may never get any shut-eye at all. But he doesn’t mind. All he cares about is for me to be comfortable enough that I’ll drift off to the Land of Nod in a matter of minutes. Come morning he’ll fix me up a sumptuous breakfast with a hot cup of chocolate on the side. My favorite is “basilog”, bacon, sinangag (fried rice) and itlog (egg). Then if I’m still asleep when I should be having breakfast already, he’ll wake me up by planting kisses all over my face and would bear hug me until I’m so wide awake already. After eating together, he would not even let me wash the dishes instead he would prod me to go back to the room and do whatever it is that I feel like doing. You see, I miscarried a couple of months ago that’s why I became an instant homebody. Losing our child brought so much depression to me that most of the time I would just sulk inside the room and refuse to see or speak to anyone else. I love writing and reading a whole lot but when I was still working I never get to do any of it. My work is pressure filled, stressful and very time consuming that’s why I usually don’t have time to do anything else. And for two straight months now my husband has been nothing but very supportive of whatever it is that would make me happy. I know that our lost broke him too but he just put on a brave face so I could get strength from him. I was always crying and feeling guilty and though he doesn’t always know the right words to say, he stayed with me. Most of the times he just held me in his arms without saying anything but I knew that it was breaking his heart too. Every now and then while I’m writing or reading, he would enter the room to check on me. And whenever my confidence level dwindles down, he’s there to boost it up by making me feel good about myself again. I even had this idea once to undergo a Fort Myers eye surgery  because of depression and though he’s not really 100% on it he still wanted to support me. I did not push through with it though because he said he loved my eyes as it is. And sometimes he just opens up the door just wide enough to take a quick peek at me or if he’s not too busy, he’ll give me butterfly kisses, locks me in his arms and tells me how much he’s proud of me and leaves the room thereafter to go back to his work. He’s handling our family’s hardware business and he’s got a little office just outside our house. That’s why most of the time, he’s in the house pushing important papers or doing some of the packing himself. And when he does go out to assist on product deliveries, he sees to it that he’ll have something when he gets back home. Nothing big or extravagant, just little things that would make me smile. Mostly food or DVDs of movies that I would like to watch, oftentimes horror flicks. Even if he’s not into these kinds of movies, he exerts an effort to like it for me. He never forgets to remember my favorite flavors of ice cream which is Coffee Crumble and cake which is Coffee Crunch. I love anything that has coffee in it but mind you I’m not really much of a coffee drinker. When we went out just recently he bought me two new pairs of jeans because the old ones do not fit very well anymore. I gained some weight when I was still pregnant and it’s still quite a struggle for me to shed off all of it. There are times that I would cook him a special lunch or dinner. And since I just started cooking when we got married last April I’m still not much of a good cook. Sometimes my cooking would spell D-I-S-A-S-T-E-R but he still eats it without complaining, too careful that he might hurt my feelings if he’ll openly show his displeasure. He even tells me that I should stop feeling bad about it and that he bets that I’ll do better next time.

These and a thousand more little things that my husband does for me sets him apart from all other “romantic” men. He may not bring me flowers, chocolates and writes me letters; he might bring me my favorite gulay (vegetable) which happens to be saluyot, specially flavored tikoy roll and just buy a card instead of making one but his saying “I love you” to me every night just before we go to sleep, means so much more than all the treasures in the world. All his actions leading to only one thought, “he loves me” in his own simple way. He loves me without any pretensions or complexities. He loves me and he’s not afraid to be stripped off all naked about it everyday. That’s why can you blame me if I fall in love over and over and over again with my “unromantic” husband? I guess not.

Dress Me Up This Halloween

Don’t you find kids adorable every time you see them putting on clothes or shoes that are way too big for them? They are just the cutest to look at, struggling while trying to carry the weight of the clothes and dragging the shoes as they walk so as not to lose their balance. Kids love wearing adult clothes, it makes them feel so grown-up. Now, your little ones have a chance to be little big men and women by wearing their favorite football players’ jerseys. Fanshopinc offers kids NFL team uniform sets and the good news is that it’s available for all of their 32 beloved teams! These little uniforms come with helmets, shoulder pads, pants and even iron-on number kits so they can be their favorite player even for just a day. Your kids playing dress-up will never be the same again. And here’s more, since October is fast approaching these same jerseys can be great Halloween costumes too! Just imagine how much fun will your kids have trick or treating wearing their favorite jerseys with decorative faces using a NFL Football Create A Fan Face Painting & Tattoo Kit at just $12.99! It includes 3 water transfer tattoos, 3 color face crayons and even official NFL team logos! If you’re too worried that their face painting might be disastrous, Fanshopinc also offers headbands and masks with wigs, fan face rally caps or just a rubber mask with the official logo of their favorite team on its forehead. Let your child’s imagination run wild and have fun creating his or her scary self this Halloween with all these amazing but low-priced apparels and merchandises from Fanshopinc. Make this year the best Halloween for your kids and your popularity with them will last you a lifetime.

Soccer and Your Goals

Soccer is one of the world’s all-time most favorite sports. Whether it’s for professional playing or simply a part of the school’s curriculum, soccer still proves to be a well-loved sport both by kids and adults. Soccer is a game of energy. Playing it requires stamina and physical power. It involves variety in movements literally speaking from head to toe. It’s a dynamic activity that’s why it’s very important that you get the best defense against all mishaps that could happen while playing the game especially for little children. Well, it’s very opportune that a friend of mine recommended a site where in you could shop for your soccer equipment needs particularly soccer goals that would fit your child’s age. Soccer Goalz Inc. gives you a broad selection of soccer goals and soccer goals accessories to choose from including soccer backstops and rebounders, all of these from Franklin Sports. Soccer Goalz Inc. offers different types of portable soccer goals that you can easily set-up in your own backyard! Now, isn’t that wonderful? Your kids can practice soccer anytime they want and be the best that they can be. Who knows one of them might be the next soccer superstar! They do not just offer the most superior in quality and durability soccer goals and accessories but these also come in most affordable of prices! You won’t ever get short-changed for buying from them because they give you exactly what your money’s worth. I should know my friend is not just one happy but very satisfied customer as well.

Must Love Cars

Love cars? You know a sure fire way of showing your love for your car? Get it insured pronto! Give it the TLC it needs by assuring its safety by insuring it.

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Pain In My Heart

Two purple lines. Do you know how significant these two lines were to me? It was priceless! The joy that I’ve felt was indescribable when I saw these two purple horizontal lines. I was laughing and crying at the same time like a loose woman. I was thanking God profusely for making my home pregnancy test positive. How powerful these two lines were to me because it could either break or make me. You see, I’ve always had this fear that I’ll never be able to bear a child and this test proved me wrong. I’ve never been happier to be proven wrong. I’ve just tied the knot last April and now after just two months, I found out that I was pregnant. I felt like a complete woman. There was a life slowly growing inside of me and that was enough reason for me to be deliriously happy. I felt so blessed. That was June 13, 2007. I was too excited to be a mom that I didn’t mind experiencing the usual pregnancy symptoms. I’d feel nauseous almost all of the time. I did not have any specific cravings but I had aversions. I’ve always been a chocolate addict but during my pregnancy I can’t stand even just a tiny bite of it. We went to a doctor and she confirmed that I’m indeed expecting. There was a presence of the gestational sac at less than 5 weeks though the embryo still can’t be seen because it was still as small as an apple seed at that time. But in a mom’s heart, I knew that my baby was in there and really excited to see the world already. June 27 marked as the most frightening day of my life. After I’ve eaten my late lunch at around quarter to 5 pm, I went back to my work area and began working again. But then I felt kind of strange as if I’m about to have my period because of the sudden wetness and abdominal cramps that I’ve felt. I decided to go to the restroom and check on it and that’s when I saw blood! It wasn’t bloody red but somewhat brownish in color. But just the same I shouldn’t be bleeding and my baby has not even reached two months old yet. I panicked because I didn’t know what to do. My emotions had gone completely haywire all of a sudden. I recited a silent prayer, “Please Lord God don’t take our baby away.” I was shaking uncontrollably and though I was trying so hard to fight back tears it was useless. I was too scared and crying was my only way of showing it. Shortly right after that I was rushed to the hospital. They’ve checked on me right away but still can’t assure me that there’s nothing wrong with the baby because they needed a sonologist who would perform a trans-v ultrasound on me. Unfortunately, two hours have already lapsed but they still can’t contact their walk-in sonologist. We decided to just go home and wait until morning to go to another hospital since the bleeding had already stopped. After dinner, I started bleeding again. This time more blood was coming out from me. Fear gripped me and I was trembling so hard when I told my husband that we needed to go to a hospital again. We went to a different one this time but just like the other hospital, external tests would not suffice to guarantee the safety of the baby, we really needed a sonologist but unfortunately they only stay until 6 pm in the hospital and it was almost midnight already when we got there. I had no choice but to stay the night and wait until morning for the sonologist. They put me on dextrose and took my blood for tests. I wasn’t minding the pain brought about by the needles. The med tech who took my blood can’t seem to find the right vein. And even though I was bruised very badly, I was too numb to complain. I said to God, I will endure anything and everything if He’ll just save my baby. I was going through emotional hell that’s why sleep seems so elusive that night. My mind was full of horrible episodes, of things that could happen, of words that would prove that my baby was really in grave danger. Finally, about almost 4 am I was able to doze off. But my sleep was haunted by nightmares. In my dream, I was walking on hospital corridors when suddenly I heard a distant wailing of a child who has been born and the jubilant cry of proud parents. As I walked toward the room from where the noises were coming from, I heard a mother’s cry of anguish for losing her child. It was heart wrenching as if I was feeling exactly what she was feeling. There were no faces just voices. And the scenes just kept on playing over and over again until I woke up in cold sweat and quivering lips. Was that a premonition or just something that my subconscious mind fabricated? I didn’t know but I was terrified. At 10 am, the sonologist performed my second trans-v. My heart was beating so fast, it was impossible to breathe normally. Just a couple of weeks ago, this same device brought so much happiness to us when it confirmed that we really were going to be parents and now fate robbed us off of that happiness. I’ve got a subchorionic hematoma. In layman’s terms the gestational sac is bloody and has been traumatized which was causing me to bleed. We went home with fear in our hearts because we were not given anything that we could hold on to if our baby would be safe. We still needed to repeat the trans-v ultrasound after two weeks to be sure. But after just 6 days, I bled profusely. I was in total shock witnessing how the brownish blood turned into bloody red that night. Somehow I knew right then and there that we’ve lost our little angel already. We went to the hospital to confirm what we already knew. Our baby was gone. The doctors confirmed that too. I cried so hard and prayed to God. I told Him that His will be done but I’m not sure how am I ever going to accept my loss. Acceptance without understanding, it’s just the hardest thing to do. Still trusting even without knowing the reason why is really such a struggle for me. I hope that God will forgive me not for doubting Him but for doubting the steadiness of my faith. For doubting myself that I’ll be able to accept things that I cannot change, things that I can do nothing about, things that are beyond my control and things that I do not understand. People would come up to me and say “just accept everything that has happened.” And I want to ask them back, “HOW?” How do you tell yourself to be strong and accept things as they are? How do you say “It’s okay maybe it wasn’t meant to be” then move on thereafter? How do you say to yourself that I’m no longer going to be a mom when just a few weeks ago you were? How do you put the pieces of your heart back together again after it has been broken to a thousand shards? How do you build a dream and shatter it too? How do you keep on living when you are already dead? I want to know how. For the pain in my heart now is almost unbearable.

I Often Wonder

I often wonder how the stars above
Could allow me to fall for someone that I could never have
Somebody who’s already not free
And no longer capable of loving me

I often wonder how the sky could still smile
When my heart is breaking all the same while
When the pain is too much to bear
When life is cruel and so unfair

I often wonder how the flowers could still bloom
When my world is bleak and covered in gloom
When my senses are dulled and the colors gone
When I could neither face tomorrow nor could I run

I often wonder how the sun could still shine
When I have to accept the truth that you can never be mine
When my tears are dried up and I can no longer cry
When although I still love you, I have to say goodbye

I often wonder how all of these will end
Will my prayers be heard?
Or I’ll just have another broken heart to mend
I often wonder.

The Impostor

I saw you with that certain smile on your face
You were in a crowd so all I could do was gaze
I looked in your eyes and tried to read your soul
But all I saw was a deep, dark and endless hole

Somehow I knew what you were feeling
Having everything but still felt nothing
When you looked at me, I knew what you were trying to ask
If it is all right to always wear a mask

To not let others know what’s really inside of you
To hide and run away from your past too
To continue smiling even if you want to cry
Even though you know that it would mean living a lie

The show must go on is what they always say
So you should go out there and pretend to be gay
But this I tell to you my friend is true
You don’t have to be yellow and pink if you’re really gray and blue